So Forgetful

Sigh... God just told me this like last week... why do I forget so easily?

I've been investing a lot of time on friendships/relationships. It's time to refocus on God and my relationship with Him! READ HIS WORD!!! I feel emtpy without it, yet, I still don't read it daily.

I feel stupid. I need help. I need God... EVERYDAY!

Promise

This song encouraged tremendously me during my hardest times in high school. I hope this song will bring encouragement to yall too.


Promise- by Kapano Green

My child listen carefully, listen to this song that I sing
Let it sink deep into your soul.

I see the way that you've been hurting, tired from the weight of your burden
I want to come and bear your load.

But I see you holding onto tear, all the questions all of the fears
All the things that keep you from believing.

But what more can I do? What must I say to prove that I love you
And I am never leaving?

Well I've told you this, but I don't think you heard me
So please hear me now

When you need me, I'll come to you
When you are weary, I'll hold you up
There's no need for you to worry
Cuz I can never break a promise, no

Stronger than the wind that blows you
Deeper than the night that unfolds you
Greater than the power of temptation

I will cause the sun to break through
Never will i leave or forsake you
I commit myself to your salvation

And you'll never grow too big for me to carry
This is Father's love

When you need me I'll come to you
When you are weary I'll hold you up
There's no need for you to worry
Cuz I can never break a promies, no
No, I can never break a promise

And when the fire rises, you will be protected
And if the sky should fall, there is shelter beneath my wings
I have written your name on my heart
You are mine

When you need me ill come to you
When you are weary ill hold you up
Theres no need for you to worry
Cuz I can never break a promise.

Today's a bad day

...cuz I don't feel like dancing. =(

"Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other..."

The Prayer of Faith

James 5:13-16

Is any one of you in trouble? He should pray.
Is anyone happy? Let him sing songs of praise.
Is any one of you sick? He should call the elders of the church to pray over him and anoint
him with oil in the name of the Lord.
And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise him up.
If he has sinned, he will be forgiven.

Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective.


It's hard for me to confess my sins to people... not because I'm prideful, but because I don't want people to know how disgusting and deep my sins are. Or perhaps it's just that one sin. I've asked God to take that sin away countless of times, but maybe He doesn't to remind me that I'm a sinner as soon I start to think I'm not; that I'm all good.

Love is Confrontational

"Better is open rebuke than hidden love.
Wounds from a friend can be trusted,
but an enemy multiplies kisses." Proverbs 27:5-6

"As iron sharpens iron,
so one man sharpens another." Proverbs 27:17

I need to confront a friend. pray that I will do it gently and with full of Christ's love.

Job's Song

I found this randomly in my files...I like.


Job's Song

G D
Been broken, put through the fire,
Em C D G
Felt the heat melt all my strength away.
G D
Felt so lonely, felt so abandoned
Em C D G
"Where is God?" I heard my little voice say.

G D
I need You, I need You,
Em C D G
Oh Lord please hold me next to You.
G D
I need You, I need You,
Em C D G
Oh Lord, don't let me fall from You.

Lord I know this world isn't easy,
And I know that You never promised no pain.
Trials will come and trials will test me,
But help me Lord, it's hard to see them as gain.

I forgot that You're right here beside me,
Let me know that You're with me through the length.
Though I'm weak, Lord, this is my prayer,
Through my weakness, Lord please be my strength.

Dear Child

I wrote this poem during my freshmen year of high school for my Geometry class. The assignment was to write a poem with certain geometry terms (underlined). It didn't have to rhyme and it could be on any topic we wanted. I guess this was what I came up with...

Dear Child,

I am in your presence

Even when you feel I'm at a far distance

I see the tears that flow down your face

When you feel lonely in a captive space

I offer you a love that lasts

A Love that's the same, future, present, and past

A Love that's like an endless line

A Love that is so divine

A Love that later leads to death

Me, hanging on the perpendicular cross, waiting for my last breath

But surely I do not fret

For I know I'll soon be with the Father and rest

I will rise on the third day and the nations will be blessed

Do you see the proof I've given, to prove that I Love you?

So, what is the reason that you can't say, "Lord, I love you, too?"

n00b

I never blogged before. Mainly because I don't want people to know my thoughts, my struggles, or how "uncool" I am in reality. I guess what I fear most about blogging is that people will judge me.

It's REALLY hard for me to share with people (my sister Carrie can tesitfy to that).

I'm not a writer, neither am I the deepest thinker. My thoughts are so random and my sentences don't fit. Who would wanna read my thoughts? oh well... hopefully somebody.

I admire those who blog. Who have the courage to put themselves out there for others to see, to read.

I guess I'm starting to blog now because I finally found some close friends that I feel I'm not being fair to by not sharing about my own struggles/thoughts with them. (I don't even know if that made any sense). But I also hope in the midst of sharing my struggles, I can share some of my victories, how God is working in my life, and hopefully bring encouragement to anyone who might read it.

My hope: that my daily life is a reflection of God's glory. Whether it be a bad day or good day... that people will see Him at work in me, through me, and around me.

Warning: I don't know how long I will keep up with this Blogging thing and I probably won't be consistent with this (cuz I'm lazy and don't like to sit in front my computer and type), but I'll try my best.